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[Writing] And so the vacation ends...
Dec. 12th, 2010 12:11 pmSo the last vacation week of 2010 ends today. I admit I've been quite the slacker this week, doing very little in terms of writing, though I've kept busy with other things such as errands, shopping, and attending multiple cultural events (John Adams' El Nino at the Symphony, Verdi's Aida at the Opera House, a visit to the Jewish Art Museum, the Nutcracker at the Opera House, and the SF Zoo yesterday). So I may not have been creatively busy over the past week, but we kept ourselves busy with fun things to do. Isn't that what vacations are supposed to be about anyway? It was a nice respite, and I'm bummed it didn't last longer!
Admittedly, my writing has in fact been weighing on my mind off and on throughout the week, so it's not as if I'd been avoiding it or ignoring it. In typical writerly fashion, I did go through a few bouts of questioning if I really should be continuing this crazy dream of mine...these bouts of course were fueled by frustration that I'm not getting anywhere, that I'm not "feeling it", or just that I'm plagued with the same self-doubt everyone else gets at certain stages, in which I'm convinced that I'm just hopelessly average and will never have a decent enough story that will sell (and I'm well past the "they just don't get me" phase, thankyewverymuch). These emotions are only intensified when I see posts from other writers who post high word counts, and I'm still sitting here around the 500 mark--if that. Well, to be honest, and as you've all probably noticed by now, I've always had a really bad habit of getting all wound up in this frustration and self-doubt, releasing it in some self-effacing fashion--mostly here on LJ--then once that's been purged, feeling like an idiot for thinking such things and moving on. Yeah, I know a lot of you have read these posts in the past and may be getting sick of reading these. It's an ongoing process, going through all of this, so I commend you for your patience. I'm dancing as fast as I can.
( Which brings me to an lj-cut )
So...that's what's been on my mind all week, as far as writing is concerned. I'm just as sick to death about avoiding this hurdle as you are hearing about it, so I think it's high time I just jumped over the damn thing already.
Admittedly, my writing has in fact been weighing on my mind off and on throughout the week, so it's not as if I'd been avoiding it or ignoring it. In typical writerly fashion, I did go through a few bouts of questioning if I really should be continuing this crazy dream of mine...these bouts of course were fueled by frustration that I'm not getting anywhere, that I'm not "feeling it", or just that I'm plagued with the same self-doubt everyone else gets at certain stages, in which I'm convinced that I'm just hopelessly average and will never have a decent enough story that will sell (and I'm well past the "they just don't get me" phase, thankyewverymuch). These emotions are only intensified when I see posts from other writers who post high word counts, and I'm still sitting here around the 500 mark--if that. Well, to be honest, and as you've all probably noticed by now, I've always had a really bad habit of getting all wound up in this frustration and self-doubt, releasing it in some self-effacing fashion--mostly here on LJ--then once that's been purged, feeling like an idiot for thinking such things and moving on. Yeah, I know a lot of you have read these posts in the past and may be getting sick of reading these. It's an ongoing process, going through all of this, so I commend you for your patience. I'm dancing as fast as I can.
( Which brings me to an lj-cut )
So...that's what's been on my mind all week, as far as writing is concerned. I'm just as sick to death about avoiding this hurdle as you are hearing about it, so I think it's high time I just jumped over the damn thing already.
