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Spring lethargy
Apr. 19th, 2026 02:59 pmAlas, we have missed the cherry blossom festival at Japantown this year. Last week was a washout due to it raining all that weekend, and as for this weekend, I had to work on Saturday and today ended up being an 'I have just enough energy to do some much-needed gardening but that's it' day. Ah well...I would have enjoyed it, but I probably would have enjoyed it more had I not been feeling so lethargic this past week.
I'm certain it's mostly due to allergies. They've been hitting me pretty hard over the last couple of years, something that hasn't happend in ages. They used to hit me pretty hard back in my MA days due to all the pine pollen, but here it's very rarely immobilizing. I even ended up calling out one day as I'd woken up to the worst sinus migraine I'd had in quite some time. I guess that's what happens as you get older...?
I also think there's a little bit of that leftover sense of urgency from my former store that I need to purge once and for all. More and more I'm catching myself stressing out over the need to be on top of everything at every moment of my shift, when clearly I DO NOT NEED TO at this other store. One, we have other people that are able to answer the phone when it rings, or do general maintenance and cleaning, or do a special project. Two, and more importantly, not once have I been given the sense that I absolutely MUST be active at all times. I look around at my other coworkers and notice that yeah, there are busy moments, but when there aren't, they don't seem to be as wound up as I sometimes am. It's just expected that everyone pulls their weight to some degree, and that is clearly evident here, much more so than my old store.
So yeah, some of this exhaustion I think comes from finally allowing myself to dial it back, and my body is finally realizing just how overworked it's been over the last few years, and responding in kind. It's a work in progress, I suppose. I'll find that balance eventually.
I'm certain it's mostly due to allergies. They've been hitting me pretty hard over the last couple of years, something that hasn't happend in ages. They used to hit me pretty hard back in my MA days due to all the pine pollen, but here it's very rarely immobilizing. I even ended up calling out one day as I'd woken up to the worst sinus migraine I'd had in quite some time. I guess that's what happens as you get older...?
I also think there's a little bit of that leftover sense of urgency from my former store that I need to purge once and for all. More and more I'm catching myself stressing out over the need to be on top of everything at every moment of my shift, when clearly I DO NOT NEED TO at this other store. One, we have other people that are able to answer the phone when it rings, or do general maintenance and cleaning, or do a special project. Two, and more importantly, not once have I been given the sense that I absolutely MUST be active at all times. I look around at my other coworkers and notice that yeah, there are busy moments, but when there aren't, they don't seem to be as wound up as I sometimes am. It's just expected that everyone pulls their weight to some degree, and that is clearly evident here, much more so than my old store.
So yeah, some of this exhaustion I think comes from finally allowing myself to dial it back, and my body is finally realizing just how overworked it's been over the last few years, and responding in kind. It's a work in progress, I suppose. I'll find that balance eventually.
