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Lighter thoughts
May. 3rd, 2020 04:01 pm I'm not sure if this should be sorted under 'now I finally have time to think about such things' or 'now I really have TOO much time to think about such things', but I'm debating whether or not to move my PC from the floor to the desk. It's something ridiculous and frivolous, but let's be honest: it actually feels really good and positive that I can actually think about such things without feeling like I'm wasting time or procrastinating.
Ever since my Belfry Days back in the late 90s, it was all about utilizing every single bit of time that I could for writing or creativity or whatever. Any small amount of time goofing off with a solitaire game or updating my music catalog was similar to what I see as 'scheduled fun time' -- you know, like the after-school things like games or sports or the like. I gave myself permission to goof off for a specific amount of time, so to speak.
I imagine this is why over the last handful of years, I'd leaned heavy on the procrastination, much to my own annoyance. Maybe I wasn't giving myself enough down time because it was too structured. Maybe that's why blogging and other lighter creative outlets started feeling less enjoyable and more like a chore.
So am I going to move this PC? I may...not sure when. There's really no strong reason for it other than changing things up. I have the room for it now (it'll go in the right corner, where my Former Day Job laptop used to sit) and I'll have less reason to be nervous about accidentally kicking it. It'll also give me reason to straighten up the spaghetti mess of the wires down there. And less dust.
But yeah. It does feel great to be able to think at a calmer level again.
Ever since my Belfry Days back in the late 90s, it was all about utilizing every single bit of time that I could for writing or creativity or whatever. Any small amount of time goofing off with a solitaire game or updating my music catalog was similar to what I see as 'scheduled fun time' -- you know, like the after-school things like games or sports or the like. I gave myself permission to goof off for a specific amount of time, so to speak.
I imagine this is why over the last handful of years, I'd leaned heavy on the procrastination, much to my own annoyance. Maybe I wasn't giving myself enough down time because it was too structured. Maybe that's why blogging and other lighter creative outlets started feeling less enjoyable and more like a chore.
So am I going to move this PC? I may...not sure when. There's really no strong reason for it other than changing things up. I have the room for it now (it'll go in the right corner, where my Former Day Job laptop used to sit) and I'll have less reason to be nervous about accidentally kicking it. It'll also give me reason to straighten up the spaghetti mess of the wires down there. And less dust.
But yeah. It does feel great to be able to think at a calmer level again.
