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Counting down the days
Mar. 25th, 2020 03:50 pmAfter today, I have four more days of working for the bank. On the one hand it's very similar to my last days at Yankee Candle, where I'd given my two weeks notice and spent them doing the same thing I did for years. There's the slight nervousness of 'okay what am I going to do after this' but otherwise I'm treating it like any other life change. On the other hand, however, I'm leaving this particular job like I did with the last days at HMV -- having fallen out with the management and in need of escape as soon as possible.
The interesting thing is the response from the management: Direct reporting manager A seems a bit distant, as if I'd scared the hell out of him and he's just doing his job. Team manager B hasn't said a peep other than pinging me to set up a time to quickly train someone on a process. Department manager C is MIA - I haven't heard a damn thing from him. And their manager hasn't said anything either. I don't exactly expect them to say anything, really...it's more about them being talkative with me in the past and suddenly cutting me off, which I find kind of fascinating in a way. Have they cut their losses and moved on? Are they personally shocked and/or disappointed and not quite sure how to handle the fallout? Who knows. I don't really care either way, honestly. I'm just fascinated by it all. They were my bosses, that's all. I never really got too close with them personally.
All told, I'm doing fine. I'm handling this particular drama quite well, considering. Keeping an even head, looking forward to a more positive future elsewhere. Sure, I'm nervous about all this happening during a pandemic, but that's all the more reason for me to stay calm and carry on. It'll be kind of weird to not have a job or one lined up, but I can do this. I want to search out of a want for the job, not out of desperate need. (Which, I know, is a rarity for many people nowadays.) Don't get me wrong, I don't plan on passing up positions I'm otherwise suited for 'to wait for something better' because that's just a bad idea. I don't want to, say, grab another corporate bank job out of desperation because it's the first thing that comes up. I have no idea how long it'll be before I'm hired elsewhere, but my only prerequisite is that it's at a company I'll actually enjoy and appreciate working for. And one that'll understand that I'm a writer as well, heh!
The interesting thing is the response from the management: Direct reporting manager A seems a bit distant, as if I'd scared the hell out of him and he's just doing his job. Team manager B hasn't said a peep other than pinging me to set up a time to quickly train someone on a process. Department manager C is MIA - I haven't heard a damn thing from him. And their manager hasn't said anything either. I don't exactly expect them to say anything, really...it's more about them being talkative with me in the past and suddenly cutting me off, which I find kind of fascinating in a way. Have they cut their losses and moved on? Are they personally shocked and/or disappointed and not quite sure how to handle the fallout? Who knows. I don't really care either way, honestly. I'm just fascinated by it all. They were my bosses, that's all. I never really got too close with them personally.
All told, I'm doing fine. I'm handling this particular drama quite well, considering. Keeping an even head, looking forward to a more positive future elsewhere. Sure, I'm nervous about all this happening during a pandemic, but that's all the more reason for me to stay calm and carry on. It'll be kind of weird to not have a job or one lined up, but I can do this. I want to search out of a want for the job, not out of desperate need. (Which, I know, is a rarity for many people nowadays.) Don't get me wrong, I don't plan on passing up positions I'm otherwise suited for 'to wait for something better' because that's just a bad idea. I don't want to, say, grab another corporate bank job out of desperation because it's the first thing that comes up. I have no idea how long it'll be before I'm hired elsewhere, but my only prerequisite is that it's at a company I'll actually enjoy and appreciate working for. And one that'll understand that I'm a writer as well, heh!
